Smell the Color 9

Been identifying with this song lately:

I would take no for an answer
Just to know I heard you speak
And I'm wondering why I've never
Seen the signs they claim to see
A lot of special revelations
Meant for everybody but me
Maybe I don't truly know You
Or maybe I just simply believe

'Cause I can sniff, I can see
I can count up pretty high
But these faculties aren't getting me
Any closer to the sky
But my heart of faith keeps pounding
So I know I'm doing fine
But sometimes finding you
Is just like trying to
Smell the color 9
Smell the color 9

Now I've never felt the presence
But I know You're always near
And I've never heard the calling
But somehow You've led me right here
So I'm not looking for burning bushes
Or some divine graffiti to appear
I'm just begging You for some wisdom
And I believe You're putting some here

Cause I can sniff, I can see
And I can count up pretty high
But these faculties aren't getting me
Any closer to the sky
But my heart of faith keeps pounding
So I know I'm doing fine
But sometimes finding you
Feels like trying to
Smell the color 9
Smell the color 9

(Well, nine's not a color
And even if it were, you can't smell a color
That's my point exactly)

- Chris Rice